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Yesterday, I went for Satoshi Yagisawa's concert and Accent. Accent is awesome. Someone kept trying to hit my head against the door. :< Accent has many things. I want to buy a FLUTE KEYCHAIN!!! OMG ITS LIKE. SO CUTE AND MINI AND SMALL. After that, I went to TXY's house. She watched her KBS stuff and KPOP stuff while I read books. Oho~ I tried a dress on. After that, we went off to SATOSHI'S CONCERT. While we were waiting for mr.z to give us the tickets, we saw a man. A Japanese man. I wonder if he is the bodyguard of the Japanese minister? Mr.z's solo is awesomely awesome. And satoshi yagisawa IS SO CUTE. During the first encore which he was leading, the percussion dropped an instrument. Everyone started to talk, and then he turned to face the audience, before putting a finger to his mouth. IT WAS SO CUTE!!! And also... Toru Miura IS SO CUTE ALSO~ WHY IS HE SO SHORT? OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~ Toru Miura's encore: Arashi's Troublemaker. IT WAS FANTASTIC. :3 some guy started dancing. I see... OTAKU is all around me~ I clapped so hard that my face and hands were hot, long after the concert ended. After it all ended, I got an autograph by SATOSHI YAGISAWA HIMSELF. I wanted Toru Miura's one more though. I went to the wrong queue. :< Also, I saw this SUPER HOT JAPANESE TROMBONE PLAYER. His name... Ko Aoki. What an exquisite name! :) On Wednesday, 7 September 2011 at 17:09 Well... Today's the big day. SATOSHI YAGISAWA'S CONCERT! I'm really excited for it. =w= On Tuesday, 6 September 2011 at 09:38 Yesterday was the band workshop. I had fun. I got pissed off. I laughed. Thats all. Going to SATOSHI YAGISAWA'S concert on tuesday. I hope I can eat supper after it ends. My maple spoilt today. I'm angry. On Sunday, 4 September 2011 at 15:58 I'm having fun spamming SUNNY KONG and SEE HUI WEN! OHOHOHO. OKAY. I'M LIKE. Looking forward to SATOSHI YAGISAWA'S concert next tuesday =w= the tickets cost me a bomb... D8 ok thats all. OAO On Thursday, 1 September 2011 at 20:21 Tadaima. On Thursday, 5 May 2011 at 22:02 This world is tiring. On Saturday, 22 January 2011 at 22:07 HAHAHAHA. Today I am setting up a new system to showcase emotions. Summer: Anger Winter: Sadness Autumn: Melancholy Spring: Happiness Today I had band. From 7.30++ until 9.37 we had foot drills. Woah, this is the first time I've ever been worked so hard! I was so serious too. Abit pissed off cuz juniors not loud at all. Especially one of them. KEEP WHINING. Never lift up leg 90 degree say leg pain. Simi lan. My rib cage pain like siao I also never complain sia. Haha. Next band practice I'm going to be the person taking over the majors, because I think they will be away O.O Kinda excited. And tomorrow there's the Haru Bazzar to look forward to! <3 On Saturday, 8 January 2011 at 18:23 Konbanwa, minna-sama! Erm. Uh. Actually got nothing to say luh. Hmm, I feel quite melancholic now that today's the last day of 2010. Wondering if I should go for Mr.z's concert. Not feeling too good, but I'm hoping I can recover. K seriously. This year I feel that from National day onwards we keep getting involved with weird arcs. I hope that next year we can stay together without such conflicts. Its really annoying _)_ And... My ambitions for the next year: Be strong emotionally and physically! Be tall, around 165cm! Buy a japanese book! Cosplay! Keyboard warrior (Pending)!! I really hope I won't be so racist next year, won't be so vulgar, work hard at school, and of course, be the perfect butler. HAHA On Friday, 31 December 2010 at 23:31 HAHAHAH. Ahem! Time sure has flied quickly, huh? Just last year I was a normal 'secret' otaku, and this year I've completely exploded! Even though this year we've crossed adversities and many many problems, we still managed to keep together, or rather, kick out those 'people'. Indeed, this year has been a tedious and difficult one. -Shine shine- HAHAHAHAHAA. I really wanted to write out an amazing end of year letter, but OH WELL. Ahhh~ Met new people this year, some are good, while the minority is bad. Its the first time I've ever included myself in any of this kind of 'arcs'. Usually I would abandon the group I was with if they bitched around or backstab each other. I guess things really changed huh? Ah well. The 14th autumn of my life has passed again. Will next year be my spring?! HAHAHAHA no idea what I'm saying. at 10:02 Ossu. Today's the last day of 2010, so I have come up with the long list of history for this year, naming all important events for me~ Jan 4: Start of school, meeting that person Feb 9: That person leaves, gives two promises ??????: Grabbed che and wen on random June: Meeting che jia wen (Through FB, but actually...) June: Cosfest, fangirl _)_ July (?) : PITB, met fat rambu _)_ July: Met up with him once or twice August: National day 'cosplay', start of debt Sept: His birthday Oct: Relationship Arc pt.1 Circa Oct 12: Ending of pt.1 Oct 22: Anger Nov 13/14: Relationship pt.2, Anger pt.2 Dec 10(?): Relationship pt.3 Dec 18(?): Arcs end Dec 23: Party at casey's house There you go. Important events! at 04:40 HHOHHOHOHOHO. Zzz Right now I'm fighting for friends zzz. Day two of spamming. Hope I can win. I really wrote one hell of a post on his wall! As a butler of the phantomhive family, if I cannot protect what is dear to me, then what am I to do? :D I really thought of so many points to highlight when I was writing on his wall, nearly blew my brain cells along. Oh well. If he dares to approach my people I'm going to rip him apart personally. That, is the way of a butler. :O On Wednesday, 15 December 2010 at 11:38 OSSU!!!! SO HAPPY MAN. STGCC YESTERDAY!!!! Freebies FTW~ Hmm, Willy kami nii-sama go make my hair, AIYOOOOO. He owes me~ BYAYAYAYAAHHAHA Weis Schwarz seems like a fun game. Willy got pwned haha. 8 climaxes all at the front :3 TOMORROW MY BO-CHAN IS RETURNING TO THE MANOR! ALL THE SERVANTS ARE BUSY PREPARING! Haha~ I'm so happy! 嬉です!ボちゃんは好き!HAHAHA 私の幸せ。。。IS AT ITS PEAK~ YAHOO~ And why am I a uke on facebook? TT On Sunday, 12 December 2010 at 19:10 Hi, finished reading Loveless already. NYAAAA SOUBI AND RITSUKA ARE SO CUTE!! Oh yeah. Willy is a pedo everyone, BEWARE~ >:3 HE STRIPS IN FRONT OF CHILDREN, LOL LOL. Willy Ong, 14, has denied all allegations that he pulled down his pants in front of little children at the bus stop. "My friend pulled it down, I swear!" he said in a Windows Live Messenger conversation. Is that really true? Lets take a look! He is quite knowledgeable about the term 'eroge', and when people say 'FUCK YOU', he tells them to strip! He also personally said, "I want to try out eroge. Actually, I have 2 eroge in my com..." OH MY, SO WILLY IS A PERVERT AFTER ALL?! "NOOOOO! THEY'RE ALL TRIALS!!" he replied after I probed about the matter. He also changed his Facebook Display Picture into a pedophile bear for an hour or so. DOES THAT IMPLY THAT HE IS A PEDO BEAR WHO STRIPS?! OH well. >:3 Hehe, if he sees this his veins will burst~ USHISHISHISHI Oh, did I mention that he was quite shy when I threatened him that I would tell everyone about what he really is? >:3 On Saturday, 4 December 2010 at 21:31 I'm getting more and more tired with each passing day. I wish I hadn't done such things. If I didn't, would I still meet them? Because I did, there are wars and fights I have to participate. I am losing the will to live. There will not be a ceasefire. Things are getting from bad to worse. My comrades, whom I have grown to love and trust; should I really believe them? Or should I voice myself? I never regretted loving and trusting you... Don't betray me. Not at this important juncture. You would break my heart. But because I love you, I will leave you. I'm sorry, but my anger has reached nearly its climax. I am angry, hurt, sorrowful, because of your doings. I forgive you, but I will always remember you for your wrongdoings. Am I such a burden that you would have to cast me aside? I gave the important promise that I would protect you. And yet, I see you being friendly with the enemy. That confuses me alot. It makes me fear that I have been betrayed. Or am I feeling this because of adolescence? On Wednesday, 1 December 2010 at 17:27 Ossu. AFA day 1 zoomed past so quickly!! Basically, me, ah gua1, 2 and 3 were damn pissed off. Here is the nice, long story =.=" We wanted to line up to buy tickets, but 'K' told us that he was helping us buy, so we gave our money to him. After awhile, tyki SMS-ed and I decided to help him buy also, but since I couldn't find K I gave the money to T. After 20mins, K returned and told us that he 'bought his own ticket' and 'had no more money to spare'. I mean, what the fuck?! Where did the other money go? Later on then he say it was due to 'buying the wrong ticket'. How wrong can that be? Even if he bought wrong ticket he would have enough to return at least half the money, yeah? I decided to ask T to help me buy, but... T also returned, with EVERY SINGLE TICKET INTACT, even tyki's ticket. I knew I should have asked T to help me buy! In the end I cut queue and help buy tickets =.=" I will never trust K again man. We were damm pissed, so we went to the 6th floor to cool our heads =.=" After we had done so we went back down. We went to take pics, play and finally went into hall 404 (?), the resting spot for cosplayers. BUBUBABA was there <3 Anyway. We danced hare hare yukai, cirno, kerro destiny, love and joy, caramel dansen, etc. Without K of course. Slacked, threw Squalo around the place. Chased after a 'zombie', the interviewer, who is Elaxias' friend, and played with tyki. Hmm. Is that all?! I intend to sing for tomorrow lol. I will have to get my own lyrics since the karoake doesn't supply romaji lyrics. On Saturday, 13 November 2010 at 20:26 I really hate this life. Why is it that my parents and grand mother are such sexists? They expect me to be at their beck and call, like a little dog. When I go teenage, I have to beg my parents. When I go cosfest, I was forced to go with my brother. When I go friends’ house, beg. When I go china town, beg. Go city hall, beg. Buy jumpsuit, beg. Cosplay, beg. WTF. WHY IS IT THAT EVERYTHING I DO, I HAVE TO BEG?! I REALLY REALLY HATE MY PARENTS. Now I can’t even go for a simple sleepover? WHY?! WHERE’S THE REASON?! When I asked why I can’t go but my brother could go, my grandmother replied scathingly, “ BECAUSE YOU ARE A GIRL! “ WHAT?! BECAUSE I AM A GIRL, I CAN’T SLEEPOVER AT PEOPLES’ HOUSE? WHERE IS THE LOGIC? HUH?! YOU TELL ME THAT, BITCH. Today I accidentally missed my tuition. I didn’t even look at the date today la, pls. I didn’t know until the teacher called la! Nabei, still blame me? Today I go work, but parents think I go friend house play? YOU Then you guys so annoying? HOW DARE YOU CHANGE MY TUITION DATE TO SATURDAY WHEN I HAVE AFA?! YOU EVEN IGNORED WHAT I HAD TO SAY?! YOU KNOW HOW MUCH COURAGE IT TAKES FOR ME TO SAY OUT WHAT I FEEL? AFA IS THE BIGGEST EVENT IN MY CURRENT 14 YEARS. YOU KNOW HOW I HAVE BEEING LIVING SINCE SEC1?! YOU ALWAYS TELL ME TO GO HOME EARLY. I DO, OKAY. That is, I USED TO. I DIDN’T HAVE A LIFE BACK THEN; I WAS LIVING FOR YOU! The moment school ended I immediately rushed home, you know?! NOW THAT I FINALLY FOUND SOMETHING THAT I CAN LIVE FOR, YOU TRY TO BREAK IT?! WHY WON’T YOU UNDERSTAND??!! I’ll tell ya something. You guys don’t mean a single shit to me now =.=” Since when have you ever shown any care for me? Have you ever hugged me or said you loved me when I was a child?! NO! I DON’T HAVE A SINGLE MEMORY OF YOU GIVING ME ANY AFFECTION, AND NOW AFTER NEARLY 10YEARS YOU TRY TO MAKE IT UP TO ME BY SAYING “I am doing this cuz’ I love you”?! Like hell I will believe you! From now on, I’m going to stand up for myself. The moment I become of age and complete my O’s, I’m going to ignore your silly comments. I’M GOING TO DO WHAT I WANT AND NO ONE IS GONNA STOP ME. Cosplay, going out, whatever. Don’t YOU come into my life and mess it up anymore! Right now you’re just a stepping stone to my independence day. And I’m really pissed off at my bro, too. When my parents wanted to force me to go for tuition on sat, my bro actually stood on my parents’ side! I thought that because our ages were so similar; he would step up and help me a little. BUT NO, HE DIDN’T. HE’S JUST ANOTHER LAPDOG TO MY PARENTS, I KNOW IT. I’m never going to trust him EVER AGAIN. I wanna get out of this hell hole, quick. Make me grow up as fast as possible… On Thursday, 11 November 2010 at 22:43 Hello. Went to Teenage Big Day Out today. Not that fun =.=" At suntec city. Haiz. Raw human emotions running high today~ I don't understand humans. Oh well~ LOL when we are in a pinch we can rely on tsunayoshi-kun! Etto. Spent half the time emo-ing in one corner. Tyki cheered me up by giving me a gift though. I shall keep this gift until I go into my grave! Umm. Wanted to dance outside the convention hall, but some muthu guy come and disiao us. I very dulan!!! But wenhui come to the rescue!!! After that we don't care liao, continue dancing, BUT JUN KHIT GO INDIRECTLY DROP MY PHONE!! I angry, so I shouted ... Alot. "OH MY FUCKING MOTHER CB ************* NOOOOOOOOO!!! " While the entire population of humans stared at me. I was not ps though. I chased jun khit all the way into the toilet ^^ Bwahaha. Okay. Oh ya. Ah gua. I will forget everything tonight. =.=" Ahh well. Humans will always be humans. Selfish, corrupt, emotional, evil. Are these not the cores of a human existance? Okay, no idea what I'm writing now. Still, I am also human, so basically I am the same, I suppose. Seriously, I don't have an idea on what is my goal in life. I'm living life because I'm alive. Thats the main reason. Yet other humans are so different. They laugh, make merry, and a few years/months they fall out. Seriously. Humans are weird. I should try new things and see what are the reactions... AH. EVERYTHING I SAY MAKES NO SENSE IN REALITY, BUT MY MIND UNDERSTANDS EVERYTHING. WHY IS THAT?!! Humans can be quite amusing though. I saw a few humans wrapping their fellow friends in cloth like a mummy. Bwahaha. On Sunday, 7 November 2010 at 20:50 Ossu, minna~ Today wen hui and jia xin come to my house to do ah jum~ For the Teenage Big Day Out tomorrow. Hmm. See if I can go luh. If can I saikang!! Quite looking forward to it. Wonder what I shall wear tomorrow? Hurhur. Just now I ganged up on my mom with wen hui and jia xin to ask permission to stay with my ah gua for AFA... Hope she will say yes!! She said gotta ask my daddy though =.=" I have a feeling he'll say no lol. Ahh well. Important things coming up: Dunearnite, AFA, Teenage ( Tomorrow ), SYF ( Next Year ) Class Outing, Buying of Shinigami costume~ Gotta remember to give ah gua her wiggie. Yosh! Oh, by the way, yesterday when I went to chinatown, I saw jun khit. And the person accompanying me to PITB was one hell of an irritant. =.=" I got squashed by millions of people and cheena people on the train =.=" Oh well. Bye biii~ On Saturday, 6 November 2010 at 19:05 Fie, pooh, pah. Lol. I don't get what goes in the heads of humans. Whats wrong with them lol. I need to get a few books on human characters =.=" at 14:50 OSSU! 200th post eh?~ Etto... Today I was supposed to go to cheryl's house to record my singing for the Anisong competition. If my singing is good, I will join~ Still, I don't think I will get chosen, cuz there's a choir girl singing the same song as me... T.T Black Rock Shooter is the only song I can probably memorize at the moment lol. Still, I have some hopes! Cheryl yesterday suddenly need go malaysia today, so I will be helping her buy her wig. Bringing my classmate to PITB to buy his stuff =.=" He's been bothering me for DAYS. Wth. Its getting kind of... Annoying already. Going to cosasia later to slack~~ HOHO. See ya peeps~ On Friday, 5 November 2010 at 08:21 |
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